Mythic Yoga

The Queen of Bohemia loves living in Boulder and thanks God every day that she does not live in Suburbistan. With her dorky black helmet on she loves to ride her pink moped downtown to meet her friend Wendy, whose art made it into the West End Gardener shop on the Pearl Street Mall.
That's me. The Queen of Bohemia. She's loving life. Despite all the shit that can rain down on her, she knows it's all still so beautiful. People are walking their dogs, riding their bikes, talking and running, children are living on garbage dumps in Cambodia. Life goes on in all its fascination and I no longer judge, think or worry about it. It just is and it's wonderful as it floats by.
The Queen of Bohemia has a shield. Wendy and I had ceviche at Aji and talked about the Mythic Yoga workshops and retreat we are doing. I talked about the outline of the workshop and how the shield making she would teach at her cabin in Rollinsville would fit in with the story of Durga and Kali that I am telling. I'm creating a mythic body armor for fairy tales that I create for myself to cope with life, as well as the telling in this memoir. This writing of my story, this exhalation of the testament to my life, to my word and experience. I've realized that this is just a story. I can peel my life and who I think I am away through the power of story. And I regain my self in this art of self reflection. And I create art as a testament and relic of my life and my experience. It holds my secrets and my spirit.
A bird is my spirit animal. Last year Wendy and I made masks, and mine was a big, black raven. This year it's shields, as the raven in my heart protects me and i need not fear life. I surrender and this image helps me cope. The grief and pain are lifted, and a bird flies up into the sky. My heart is as open as the night sky.
Wendy saw a friend who was getting ready for retirement and said, "To do the things I've always wanted to do." Despite my difficulties, I'm so grateful that I get to do what I want to do. I'm so grateful to be supported in my life and my work. When you really look at it it's quite a miracle. So I had the image of a butterfly for the symbol at the center of my shield. That all is well.
I went to a bankruptcy lawyer on Monday and I got the options. And the reality is that I have a pretty good situation and if Justin would just sell the house I'd be in much better shape. So I believe that will happen soon. And I will keep Speer and maybe sell Arvada and my finances are actually decent, and I have a promising future ahead that I trust in so risk everything. High risk, high reward, my late husband always said.
I realize that the biggest thing that the Queen of Bohemia does is that she does not focus on bankruptcy, she does not focus on disaster and doomsday and lack and poverty and war and hell and chaos. Her mother and father do not life with her. That is old. This is new. The Queen of Bohemia has cleansed all that negativity and mess from her inside and out.
She focuses ONLY on what she wants to appear in her realm. And that is a bright and lovely future. A League of Yogic Storytellers and Storytime Yoga Mission. I'd love to start a little yoga preschool in Mexico. It would be free to all. Sponsored by the United States Social Security Office. Fighting for the betterment of women and children around the world. I got that idea in a little store. I thought it was a yuppy place, lamenting how Boulder used to be, more funky. But there was a charming display of cute toys. It harkened back to birth, babies and young children. The fresh joy of life. i bought a little llama. It's sustainable economics, so worth the $10!
But I wanted to start this mission. What else do you have to do in life? Once you get past 40 it's a blessing. You get authentic quick or die. I remember when I was a reporter in Bakersfield I did a story about three sister's who owned a restaurant in Delano on skid row, decided to stop serving alcohol, and held Pentacostal revivals every Friday night for the people in the streets. I talked to a source and I remember he said, "When you find something to die for, you find something to live for. That's what Christ did." So, my first mythology was Christ, and it sounds a lot like Krishna, the story is imbedded in me so we shall see if this turns out! And then we can't forget Miriam, the first feminist, the water appearing in the heavy rains here in Boulder for the past month, and the water in the Mythic Yoga E-courses.
Maybe that is what the orange florescent mermaid in my dream is. I have had a lot of mermaids in my life lately. The Serapha makeup ad with a sexy young mermaid girl with heavy eye make up on the 29th street mall. I am a Capricorn and I march up a mountain most mornings. Then there is my fascination with Quetzalcoatl. This plaque that caught my eye at Tamsen's house of a crane with a woman let me to Google search that they are......the sirens. And the Siren's biggest power is their SILENCE.